Since June 13, 2015; I have been on a spiritual healing journey. Renewing my mind and digging deep into my spirit listening to CD’s and reading material having to do with my past hurts, hang-ups and habits. Digging deep into my soul, spirit, and dealing with my past hurts from people who have used, hurt, and abused me. This journey has not been an easy one. I have been having nightmares, crying, pain that has resurfaced, as well as hurts that I thought I had dealt with long ago, have not come back for me to deal with them and heal at the same time as I release them.
If you are like me it’s renewing our mind. I attended a seminar to where I was given the tools to dig deep into my self and search out the most painful hurts that I have ever had to deal with. Its a process that is not only needed, but will also be freeing when I get finished. Things that have triggered the past hurts, that are being revealed and dealing with them to finally be rid of them for good.
It’s a very painful process, but a necessary one as well. I have had nightmares return, pain of being hurt, and I have been crying as a way of releasing and dealing with this pain. For the first time in a long time, I am becoming at peace with myself and healing those generational hurts and curses. Yes, I said generational. See what you may not realize is that we have inherited traits from our parents that has extended from our family bloodline. These come in the form of curses that were said over us, toward us, and how we were treated as a child growing up. If you were like me, you held in those hurts and buried the so that we didn’t have to feel the pain of them. Unfortunately that can only last so long and then they will come back when, either some one says something that triggers those feelings and emotions in our minds. When that happens then we relive those emotions and must deal with those hurts to be rid of them for good.
Granted it’s not an easy process, but unless we want to continue to relive them every day of our lives, we need to deal with them once and for all and get rid of them. They will hurt for the moment, but we don’t have allow them to last long. Once we deal with them we can then move forward and live a much freer and happier life. That is my current goal. Dealing with my past hurts, and letting them go for good. Never to think about them and never to feel those hurts ever again.
To live a freer lifestyle means that I work to surrender everything to God. Laying it at His feet and not taking it back to deal with myself. Allowing Him to free me and allowing me to be more like Jesus and walk with Him instead of behind Him. This process has triggered feelings that I thought I had put to rest, but when I asked God to show me what I needed to deal with He has brought them to the forefront for me to deal with them once and for all.
What a loving and caring God we serve. Changing my thoughts and ways to honor Him is the best way that I can think of to show God that I love, honor, and obey Him.
What about you? Are you on a Spiritual journey as well? I would love to hear more about it.