I am saying this because it has been on my mind for a while now and it has brought considerable healing for me to look, evaluate and purge what I no longer want in my life.  Have you often wondered why we as Christians act the way that we do?  I know that  I have recently been doing so.  Re-evaluating my thoughts and what I have been saying.  What are we really trying to say and how are we being perceived by those around us that are non-believers?  To me we are certainly not acting Christ like.  What would Jesus think or say if he saw us now?  Would He be pleased with some of us or not?  Have we grieved or saddened Him?  He knows each and everyone of our hearts and minds.  We are all believers in Christ and we are acting like kids fighting on a playground.  Fighting among-st ourselves for control and that’s all it is control.  Which I have come to realize that it is not from God.

Just because we have different views doesn’t mean that we cannot get along with one another.  We are all believers in Christ.  Yet we are not showing that to the world.  We are all suppose to be of ONE body.   We have all claimed to have received and accepted Jesus Christ as our Lord and savior and we are not acting like it.  We are not loving others the way that Christ commanded us to do so.  We are not showing others love either, forgiveness, compassion, or restoration.

All that I have been observing for the past four months is control, chaos and strife.  Say something wrong or the wrong way, and you are banned from the chat sight, apologize and ask for forgiveness and it’s perceived as having been said the wrong way.  We have become nothing more than part time Christians.  Using God to make ourselves feel good, my real question is–is God really leading your life, or are you using that as an excuse.  Are you really being led by the Spirit or are you just pacifying?  We need to stop and be held accountable.  Taking a hard look at ourselves and do it daily and yes, I mean daily- purging the things from our lives that are not pleasing or accepting to God.  Re-evaluate what we are saying and doing to others, as well as our fellow Christians and the non-Christians and how they view us.  If we are not portraying God’s love to the world like we are commanded to do so, then we had better stop and re-evaluate what we are doing wrong, because the world certainly is seeing it, and there are several more religions out there to prove it and we are being called hypocrites to boot.

I don’t know about you, but I am tired of all of this.  We are suppose to be brothers and sisters in Christ and we are far from it.  Plain and simple!  The old words ‘what would Jesus do’ (WWJD); should still hold true for today.

I have come to this observation by examining my own life and what I have been saying and doing,  by studying the Word and really getting into it.  Trust me when I say it has not been a pretty sight.  I am not only disgusted with myself, but at how I have been acting towards others, as well as treating them.  I am not only upset with myself for doing this, but for having set a poor example to those that are non-believers.  We are suppose to be setting the example.  We call ourselves Christians and all we are doing is causing strife and friction among-st ourselves.  It’s sad and shameful.

It’s nothing more than a power struggle on who can do what first and keep out whomever.  There is not love, compassion, understanding, forgiveness and all those things that we are suppose to be doing in the Spirit. THE FRUITS OF THE SPIRIT!

Galatians 5:22-23:  22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness,

23 gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law.

I don’t know about you, but I am as much at fault as everyone else is and I for one have had and done enough.  The way that so called fellow Christians treat each other should be appalling.  When are we going to stop acting like children, throwing temper tantrums and grow up in the way that God wants us to?  I for one am not going to be making anymore excuses for my actions.  I’m going to be taking responsibility and accepting the consequences for not doing what I am suppose to be doing.  If I am wrong so be it.  I will not run from it nor will I allow anyone else to take the heat for it.  We are suppose to be bringing the lost to the Kingdom of God.  Being witnesses to them and showing them God’s love.  All we have been doing is turning them away and showing them that we are nothing more than hypocrites.

Since I stepped down from being a moderator in a chat room and have been banned from that network; I have come to realize and God has opened my eyes to seeing who and what I have become and to say the least I am ashamed of myself for having done it.  I was on nothing more than a power trip.  Following all the rules to a T.  Discarding anyone in the process.  Suspicious of everyone.  If anyone came in and said something wrong they were considered a troublemaker, kicked and banned.  God forbid you questioned anything, because you thought you were doing the right thing, and you were labeled a troublemaker for trying to do the right thing and seeing others differently.  I am not making excuses for my behavior what I did and said at the time was wrong, but I’m only pointing out that I too was caught up in this vicious cycle of being on a power trip.  It’s wrong and en-excusable.

This all happened to me about a month ago and I have not  only been seeing where I have been going wrong, but what I was doing was wrong.  I have also been seeing  that what I have been doing was not pleasing to God, who is the only one that I should be pleasing in the first place.  Not man!  So I have been repenting and working on finding God again and working to be restored back into His presence, where I belong.

You could say that I have taken off my outer layers and let God take over completely in me.  God sees it anyway so you or I am not fooling Him in the least.  We can call it anything we want, but the fact remains that we are not pleasing God when we are trying to do things ourselves and not relinquishing everything to Him, and if you are like me, you should be ashamed of yourself like I am.  Turning to God and asking for forgiveness and working on getting back with Him.  As I am.  This has not been a fun trip, but one that I intend on not repeating.

How about you?  Will you join me?